I'm Feeling Directionless

I lied

I said I was going to post here more frequently and I ended up posting way less.  Haha I guess thats life.  I think nows as good a time as any.  I’m going ot try and post in here once a day, even if it’s just a quick one liner.  That way I can stay on track with what I’m doing to better myself.

So today I have 53 days sober and I started excersizing for the first time in a while.  I ran around the park and my neighborhood and then took my doggies on a much needed walk.  They were so happy.  I’m going to try and jog everyday now because I believe and have read multiple articles on how it promotes happiness.  I already feel it just with the last hour I’ve been working out. 

I still need a job but I’m not beating myself up about that, if I can get my mental and physical health in order I’m sure I’ll be able to find something.  For now thats all I can think of but I might post back more later tonight. :)

I have decided that this tumblr will now be turning into my best friend. I will share anything and everything that is on my mind since I don’t really have anyone to talk to anymore.  Oh the life of a sober shut in… funny things is I’m much more happy with it this way. :D

Turning Tables

For the first time in a long time I’m happy.  I know I will have bad days but at least these bad days wont be solved with a bottle.  I can think for myself, I’m getting better at talking to people, and overall I’m smiling more.  I only have six days but I feel as if my whole life has changed.

All I want is to be happy, to finish school, to find a job that I love… to reach my full potential.  It can be over in an instant and I know that all to well.  I’m doing this for Hilary, if she can’t be here to live her life to the fullest then who am I to throw mine away?  

hahah so true

hahah so true